Friday, July 1, 2011

i miss jason.

tonight is a bad night.

ive never felt more alone/scared in my life.

i try to calm myself down,

then full on panic attack comes.

i dont want drugs.

i just want jason.

he could fix everything.

1 comment:

  1. i have been reading your blog for a while now, this one and the previous one. I am so very sorry that you are so sad right now. its ok to be this sad because healing is a process and you have lost much. however, you are not alone, even if it feels like it. you dont need drugs and you dont need to be scared. the worst has happened already, what ever the future holds you can take and deal with it, it will be hard, truly very difficult but you will be fine, and then as a little more time will pass and you will be good, and with a little more time you will be with Jason. I have 7 people in my family with cancer, about one of them i found out yesterday and its very hard. But, Please remember that you are not alone, I am around and I am reading, and I am keeping my fingers crossed for you. You can fix everything but with time, after you grieve. Jason was a great man and you had the honor of knowing him, carry his memory as your personal flag, be proud of him and his legacy. Remember that more than anything he wanted you to be happy and eventually, after a bit of time, you will be.

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