Friday, November 18, 2011

needless to say the headstone DIDNT come in wednesday. but it DID come today! {friday 18}

i was so worried it wouldnt be delivered since it was snowing like crazy out here today. not mention the fact it was supposed to be delivered back in August...and they have rescheduled about ten times.

remember how i switched the stone to get it delivered sooner?...well we ended up with the stone i originally who knows if it was just some excuse to take longer to deliver {which i'm sure they regretted when putting the stone in during a blizzard along with about 4 inches on the ground}

i was very upset with the business and how long they took to deliver. but now that it is is perfect.

just getting there...
 digging the grass up, for the cement block to go into
 leveling it out
 lowering the cement block down
 they lowered the base, centered it, then put this putty stuff down and removed the sticks underneath it
 they put the stick on top of the base then lowered the top down onto it, centered it, put the calk around then removed the sticks
 removing the excess calk that was pushed out by the weight of the stone

the finished it.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

My sister in law is having a slumber party, at my house, and everyones invited! ;) so email me {} or message me on fb or txt me, and ill give ya all the details :)
im back out to the parentals, dylans blessing was sunday so i came out for it saturday night, then had a get together tuesday so didnt see the point in driving back to logan just to come back a day later, and now have a baby shower tomorrow so needless to say it just made sense to stay out here...

still no headstone. hoping this week...called today, and they told me its done and should be delivered wednesday...ill believe it when i see it.

i got more stuff put away at the house...working on turning our home into my home...i have moments where im on a roll, and doing great...then find something i havent seen in a while...if ever...quick sobfest then im back to work...

i feel with each step forward its a few back {thanks kay for this, it definitely fits right now}

still trying to decide what to do with my rings, i feel like i have considered EVERYTHING, but cant decide. i moved them to my right hand...but they got moved back, they didnt feel right over there, and my right hand is fatter than my leaning more towards wearing them around my neck, if i can get a chain that has a safety thing on it. ive thought about melting it down but then its too different, and the inscription would be gone and right now thats just way too much change...

i talked to work, n am planning on going back in January...this year is i will just start the new year off fresh.

changing titles to the truck/motorcycle is going to be the death of me! serious biggest pain. ever. but should be done least to the truck

i feel like im getting back into life, back into very happy with what i have accomplished the past couple weeks...and hope its all up hill from least a little calmer than it has been...

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

im still home. {its a big accomplishment}

 Kay and Lance stopped by yesterday ♥ it was good to see them. Lance is going to blow out my sprinklers. {as far as i know i did everything else right :)} 

ive been cleaning, putting stuff away, trying to decide what to do with stuff...its tough.

today i moved all of jasons clothes, well the ones in the closet. from his closet to the spare rooms closet. i know its not a big move, it would have been easier to just put it all in bags for the DI or whatev, but this was hard enough. im still deciding what to do with them. i think i want them made into a memory quilt. i just have to learn to sew...or find someone to make it for me {im sure i will find someone} im hoping that with them in the spare room {that i never go in to} i will kind of forget they are there, so when the time comes it will be easier to part with them.  also i couldnt handle staring at them any more, and the closet doors have to be open because frankies kennel is in there and he would have a heart attack if he couldnt get to it! so im seeing this as a step forward...i had forgotten how big Jason's feet were, seriously they were huge. {random i know}

but on a good note of cleaning out his closet, i found money! and a notebook named jasons cancer journal... he wrote in it twice...once about radar sending us on our cruise ♥ and the other was this -
I'm so sore tired & weak
staying positive is hard when the future's bleak
somehow I couldn't be more happy with my life
I owe everything to my beautiful wife
sobfest at my house!...

samples of memory quilts here