i look around and see all these couples, who have made it 5+ years, with no stress, at least none comparable to ours... and i just dont understand...dont understand why my hubby passed away at the age of 22, after only a little over 2 years of being married...i just dont understand why it was my hubby...why we didnt get a family, get time to argue more, love more, travel more....why was our time cut short?...

why do people who are absolutely miserable and hate life get to live to be 110...and my hubby loved life, had to go at 22...how can older people get cancer and beat it, but jason who was as healthy as a horse, gets cancer and it takes his life...

we were told in august of 2009 that jason was cancer free and had nothing to worry about {his had a swollen lymph node, we went to the big dr to get it checked} the dr felt it, adn told him he had nothing to worry about...and a few months later we are in the ICU at the University, im so mad at that dr, mad he didnt do a scan...mad that he told us it was nothing and sent us home...

so mad that we only got 2 years n 8 months in our marriage, so mad you were taken away from me, and i am left here to fend for myself...im so mad and angry that i am here alone, without you and completely lost, so mad that i have to start over without you....