got a phone call today, from our first natural dr {we went to like 4} they called to see how jason was doing. i had told myself today was going to be a good day, at least better than the last few. until i got the phone call. it was all i could do not to hang the phone up. i couldnt even get out, 'he passed away last month' without hysterically crying...

maybe tomorrow will be a better day....